I feel wired about my Instagram account. Maybe I should just deactivate it.
The problem is I'm receiving feedbacks, mostly negative. Do I share too much? Should I just keep these highlighted moments of the day to myself?
Sometimes I have the strongest feelings in the world for absolutely trivial daily mattes, and then I begin thinking that I would definitely enjoy more if I share this moment with others.
Considering the current situation in Iran, it's not the best approach. I can't change everyone's life, I can't just act as if I was a leader or coach to everyone, I don't have a clearance for that and even if I did, It's not totally respectful to them. Why you ask? Well, they don't know how hard I've been trying and struggling with my life to be here right now... and it's not over. However, just to be said that I'm not completely satisfied with my performance and productivity during recent years. Anyway, I should not share this much or I may not share at all! It's my life now and these people are from the past. There are only a few who truly care about my wellbeing and my journey through this meaningless (!) life, which is basically trying to fine a reason to push through.
So... should I just deactivate my social media accounts? Should I spend more time with actual people with face to face quality time?
well... yes and no. I should definitely make some changes but as always I tend to be kinda extreme here.
I shouldn't forget that this sharing thing is a big part of my life, I owe a big part of my personality to it. It has been always pushing me to make the best out of my days "so that" I can share it and enjoy the fact that I can actually influence people.
Maybe this is a good question to ask: How can I actually influence others in a productive way rather than just make them jealous or make them run away?
How can I be a better person, more realistic and more sophisticated?
Before sharing anything, maybe it's a good question to ask: What's my point here? Why?
Starting tomorrow, I'm gonna apply some changes here.
By the way, life is going one and it's awesome here1 I'm learning stuff every day and Can't wait to live the rest of my life. Recently, I've been thinking about finding a soulmate or so but I won't. I don't have a time or even capacity for that. I'm remarkably focused on finding my way through this new life, I'm trying to shape my routines and consequently my new personality. So far so good! Still, a lot to do. If I wanna sore my improvements and rate it, from 0 to 100 I say I' just reached 5 or 6! Still, 95 to go which is a lot!
I'll do everything, I keep planning for my life and trying new ideas.
Gonna share everything with you guys, here ;)